Monday, August 17, 2009
today's another boring lifeless day of mine and its gonna continue for the rest of my life i suppose..?
woke up at 8am..studied my food & hygiene..however alot of things were running through my mind while i was studying..i couldnt focus my fucking mind! stuffs i need to worry about made my mind a mess..i don't know if im making a correct choice by finding a new band through SOFT...somehow im having second thoughts cause im not using to playing with total strangers...tried asking fifi whether he wanted to form a new band but that have to wait till his replug concert is finished cause they r busy with preparations...im running out of patience with myself too...FUCK U YY u pathetic useless fucker..
Trying my best to get through life..cause life is never fair or perfect...all i can do is sigh...why do i have such a boring family..? they dont talk...they dont go out together as a family...and i get nagged every single day...sometimes i wish i was just gone...fuck care everything and be somewhere else rather than home...this is why im always not at home..cause i hate to be home...i hope this holiday i will have lots of outing or events...coz i cant stand staying at home..or maybe keep on jamming everyday...

i need a big hug or kisses everyday cause i love it..it makes me feel home and puts my mind at peace from troubles & worries all the time..works like a drug to me..the only 1 who can fufill that is baby :) cause she always melts my damned heart which is desperate for love...am i prepared..?
--Yin You at 9:32 PM